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i'll tell you one thing or another about my life

up and away, this story ends today! (at home.)
in a few weeks I will commence an amazing opportunity working with a catering company in melbourne. I am so excited to throw myself into a new challenge, to learn from some really talented and experienced women and to be involved in creating special event experiences! with a fresh outlook and a new role, i am hoping to reinvent my lifestyle to one where i am busy, fulfilled, healthy and socially active - a balanced and sustainable routine that will make me much more happy in my day-to-day life! i truly believe in the concept of fate and good fortune - if you seek fulfilling pursuits and work hard towards them, be true to yourself and be patient in the trust that something good will follow, you will reach your cloud. never doubt that your dreams are attainable, because every day is a chance to start over, to reinvent yourself and to begin a new life - you just have to take the first step!

in a few weeks I will commence an amazing opportunity working with a catering company in melbourne. I am so excited to throw myself into a new challenge, to learn from some really talented and experienced women and to be involved in creating special event experiences! with a fresh outlook and a new role, i am hoping to reinvent my lifestyle to one where i am busy, fulfilled, healthy and socially active - a balanced and sustainable routine that will make me much more happy in my day-to-day life!

i truly believe in the concept of fate and good fortune - if you seek fulfilling pursuits and work hard towards them, be true to yourself and be patient in the trust that something good will follow, you will reach your cloud. never doubt that your dreams are attainable, because every day is a chance to start over, to reinvent yourself and to begin a new life - you just have to take the first step!

“When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves”

—   Viktor E. Frankl 

Follow your heart; you’ll know when you find it.

I’ve been doing A LOT of thinking lately about where I want to go with my life -what I want to do, who I want to do it with and how I want to spend my days. it can be a confronting process - to look yourself in the mirror and ask for the truth. so many of us just go about our lives following the path that’s been laid out for us - by our families and friends, by those who went before us, by society. 

having found myself on a road to nowhere, it’s time to get serious and throw my fears aside.

in this period of soul-searching i’ve read a lot and sought the opinions of my family and friends. some of the most powerful ideas i’ve encountered came from a speech made by Steve Jobs to a graduating class of Stanford, the link to which my mum emailed me. some of the things he said:

"You cant connect the dots looking forward. You can only connect them looking backwards. You have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something – your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. Because believing that the dots will connect down the road, will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the well-worn path. And that will make all the difference.

The only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking and don’t settle. Follow your heart; you’ll know when you find it.

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma. Have the courage to follow your heart and intuition – they somehow already know what you truly want to become.

Stay hungry. Stay foolish. “ 

all of it rings so true to where I am at right now - i’ve been putting the dots together in the most sensible way i know how, trying to follow the well-worn path. but it doesn’t work that way. i need to follow my heart and trust that the dots will connect - that all of this will somehow make sense down the line. the irony is, in trying to piece the dots together in a logical way, i’ve taken myself down an even more random path and my whole journey has been skewed. i’m lost! but the quest to find myself is the most exciting i’ve ever imagined. 

in life, every little experience, relationship and moment contributes to who you are. every bad decision teaches us a lesson and even the smallest triumph assures us that we’re on the right track. regret is futile and hope is imperative - your true purpose is waiting for you if you look hard enough. 

so, i’ll just keep on searching for mine.

i’ll let you know when i find it. 

while one is fading, the other will thrive..

alive.

riding my bike this weekend, i had the strangest feeling of deja vu.

a few years ago i travelled to Cambodia, where I spent 6 weeks volunteering in a rural community outside Siem Reap. some of my fondest and most vivid memories from my time in Krobie Real are my bike rides through the village alone. as i rode across victoria st in richmond, vic on one of the hottest days this year - the smell of asian supermarkets and miscellaneous produce wafting in the hot breeze, the chatter of little ladies in their native tongue -  i recalled my solo jaunts around the village on those hot lunchtime breaks. something about gliding (sometimes bouncing!) along the dirt road in that little village, a million miles away from the home I knew, made me feel more alive than ever.

as a 22 year old, i had taken myself on this adventure to try to ‘let go’ and see a part of the world i’d never experienced, in the most pure way possible. when i was feeling overwhelmed, I would take myself for a ride down the road to clear my head. In the hot breeze on the dusty road, lined with fluorescent rice paddys and cows lazing around under the shade of the trees, I would find the little piece of myself that had taken me there in the first place.

the other day, as this memory popped into my head on my way home, i remembered a promise i made to myself in Cambodia, and have sworn to uphold many times since - to live. 

there have been so many times where i’ve felt cheated by my own fears - held back from amazing things because of this subconscious reluctance to let go and embrace life. before i returned to Australia from this trip, I wanted to make sure I never forgot this promise to myself so I had the word ‘live’ tattooed on my foot. its a constant reminder for me to keep on pushing for the life i want to lead. to live truly.

it’s easy to lose track of the days and weeks - but this year i intend to live every day fully.   

tonight, I’m going home to Brisbane. I can’t wait to see these 2 cuties!! (at Oriel Park)
twenty twelve.  
i know i’ve been away for a while - life got busy and i never really felt as though I had much to say. I was busy creating a life, getting a job, making a home in a new city..  but before the year disappears on us - one last post.  
looking back on the past 12-18 months, I realise that I’ve done a lot!!  
it was probably 2 years ago now, that I decided to embark on a fairly unique adventure - to spend a year living and working in the US. In July last year, Cam and I arrived in San Diego - the beginning of what would be a 10 month stay. It feels like just yesterday that we returned home and it’s only on putting it down on the screen now, that I am realising how long ago it was! 
For the first few months of 2012, life in San Francisco was sweet. I worked for a cute family business and helped them to grow their operation selling delicious cream puffs. We explored the amazing city with friends and enjoyed being truly settled in our SF life. In the last few months in the US we travelled a lot- snowboarding in Lake Tahoe, visits to Portland, Seattle, Chicago, Boston and New York. It was a whirlwind few weeks of travel at the end, and perhaps we still haven’t stopped pedaling for long enough to really appreciate it!  
On returning from the East Coast, we jumped in a rental car and made our way down to the Cali desert - to Coachella! It was a pretty amazing (and HOT) few days spent with our friend Grace at one of the biggest music festivals in the world. Seriously amazing artists and such a friendly community, in the crazy heat. I even high-fived Penn Badgley (so sly and totally cool). 
The cherry-on-top of our Cali adventures, was the roadtrip home by Highway One- big big tick on all of our must-see lists for 20-something life adventures! Along the way we drove through pretty countryside, past huge windfarms and mostly, along the beautiful coastline. We saw elephant seals on the beach and swimming in the deep blue water - and had to resist the urge to stop at every pullout - it was just too beautiful!!  
After a few days showing our friend the city that had been our home for almost 9 months, we said farewell to SF at the end of April. It was a sad and surreal feeling, but we were excited to return and get on with the next stage of our lives. 
Since returning to Australia in May, life has kept on moving!  
I celebrated my 25th birthday and not long after, we made another leap to move to Melbourne.  
Since moving to Melbourne in June, we have established full time work, some new friends and a great little home in a cute neighbourhood. We are loving exploring Melbourne and its surrounds and making the most of our weekends!! It wasn’t quite as simple as all that, but we persevered and came out on top. It’s been a long journey to get to this point, and I’m proud to look back on it all now, knowing that we never gave up.  
A lot of other things have happened this year - birthdays and engagements and weddings and babies and new homes - some really exciting and special moments shared with family and friends. my sister is currently travelling in Kenya - a trip that I’m sure will be one of the most memorable experiences of her life - and I couldn’t be happier for her!  
To cap it all off, we will be celebrating NYE 2013 at Falls Festival in Lorne. It’s going to be our first Falls Festival, so we’re pretty excited. 
I’m so looking forward to celebrating Christmas with my family and spending some time at the beach to relax and recharge. I can’t believe it was almost a year ago that we were ice-skating in Yosemite National Park on Christmas Eve.  
I am so grateful for the amazing experiences that 2012 brought me, for the support of my family, and the friendship of beautiful people we’ve met along the way.  
May 2013 bring us all a little more love and peace and hope. 

twenty twelve. 
 

i know i’ve been away for a while - life got busy and i never really felt as though I had much to say. I was busy creating a life, getting a job, making a home in a new city..  but before the year disappears on us - one last post. 
 

looking back on the past 12-18 months, I realise that I’ve done a lot!! 
 

it was probably 2 years ago now, that I decided to embark on a fairly unique adventure - to spend a year living and working in the US. In July last year, Cam and I arrived in San Diego - the beginning of what would be a 10 month stay. It feels like just yesterday that we returned home and it’s only on putting it down on the screen now, that I am realising how long ago it was!
 

For the first few months of 2012, life in San Francisco was sweet. I worked for a cute family business and helped them to grow their operation selling delicious cream puffs. We explored the amazing city with friends and enjoyed being truly settled in our SF life. In the last few months in the US we travelled a lot- snowboarding in Lake Tahoe, visits to Portland, Seattle, Chicago, Boston and New York. It was a whirlwind few weeks of travel at the end, and perhaps we still haven’t stopped pedaling for long enough to really appreciate it! 
 

On returning from the East Coast, we jumped in a rental car and made our way down to the Cali desert - to Coachella! It was a pretty amazing (and HOT) few days spent with our friend Grace at one of the biggest music festivals in the world. Seriously amazing artists and such a friendly community, in the crazy heat. I even high-fived Penn Badgley (so sly and totally cool).
 

The cherry-on-top of our Cali adventures, was the roadtrip home by Highway One- big big tick on all of our must-see lists for 20-something life adventures! Along the way we drove through pretty countryside, past huge windfarms and mostly, along the beautiful coastline. We saw elephant seals on the beach and swimming in the deep blue water - and had to resist the urge to stop at every pullout - it was just too beautiful!! 
 

After a few days showing our friend the city that had been our home for almost 9 months, we said farewell to SF at the end of April. It was a sad and surreal feeling, but we were excited to return and get on with the next stage of our lives.
 

Since returning to Australia in May, life has kept on moving! 
 

I celebrated my 25th birthday and not long after, we made another leap to move to Melbourne. 
 

Since moving to Melbourne in June, we have established full time work, some new friends and a great little home in a cute neighbourhood. We are loving exploring Melbourne and its surrounds and making the most of our weekends!! It wasn’t quite as simple as all that, but we persevered and came out on top. It’s been a long journey to get to this point, and I’m proud to look back on it all now, knowing that we never gave up. 
 

A lot of other things have happened this year - birthdays and engagements and weddings and babies and new homes - some really exciting and special moments shared with family and friends. my sister is currently travelling in Kenya - a trip that I’m sure will be one of the most memorable experiences of her life - and I couldn’t be happier for her! 
 

To cap it all off, we will be celebrating NYE 2013 at Falls Festival in Lorne. It’s going to be our first Falls Festival, so we’re pretty excited.
 

I’m so looking forward to celebrating Christmas with my family and spending some time at the beach to relax and recharge. I can’t believe it was almost a year ago that we were ice-skating in Yosemite National Park on Christmas Eve. 
 

I am so grateful for the amazing experiences that 2012 brought me, for the support of my family, and the friendship of beautiful people we’ve met along the way. 
 

May 2013 bring us all a little more love and peace and hope. 

bye bye blue skies  (Taken with Instagram at Brisbane Airport (BNE))

bye bye blue skies (Taken with Instagram at Brisbane Airport (BNE))

happy to be home with my baby grace for a few days! (Taken with Instagram at Oriel Rd)